ALL OR NOTHING

It has been said to me as it relates to relationships, matters of the heart, and abandonment I am very clear that mistakes cannot be made when loving me. How dare you even try and come at me with such a lame excuse in why you failed to love me properly. Love is supposed to calm the soul and stimulate the mind. So why then are you coming to me, with a half-hearted proposal of loving me? There is nothing I will ever beg for when it comes to love because if you don’t give it willingly me demanding it will only end in someone getting hurt.

The symptom of a heart unfulfilled causes your journey to be unbearable. There is no way you will be allowed to live comfortably when you have made my life one I no longer recognize or realize is worth living without your form of love I am accustomed to.

The heartbreak is real and if I could cause you pain without getting caught I would. And now what of trust? You wait to say, “I made a mistake I still want you beside me on my journey through this maze called living.” But how do I trust the word of a liar who said, “I will love you as long as I breathe.” Oh, wait these words of forgiveness is what I seek, search, and want to share, but you are not offering. I feel like an idiot because I am actually waiting on you to forgive my betrayal and you are the one who wants out.

It is just amazing how when love is consuming you want to hold on to anything that keeps you connected to the object of your affection. The danger can be the tightness in which you want to hold on. Sometimes the best answer is to leave some of the emotions out of your decisions, and you then can use the rash mind to decide how to calm the ego, and that’s really what it’s about. Not wanting others to know or see you walking alone because then an explanation will be demanded and an answer you might not have.

Okay, take it from someone whose cried, screamed, begged, demanded or just got over an evaporated relationship, you do find a way to love over it and not become bitter (if you choose to). All is not right in the universe, but you can still walk in victory by trusting yourself to the one who created the universe.

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Love is the Source

GodISLove

Prayer is the way to change things

Hope runs eternal

Peace remains

Joy never stops

Happiness is your motto

There is nothing you cannot accomplish

You must define your role in this world

Don’t be deceived by other’s opinion of you

You are loved because of God

Because everything you want is in your power create the life you deserve.

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My Redeemer Lives

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if He didn’t I could not get up each day

what you think I do with ease is only because He does live

because he lives I am able to love the none lovable

I tolerant those that are not like me because of the love of Christ

nothing i have is because of who i am it simply is because he loved me He left it all on the cross for me

He allows me to be a perfected (version of myself) reflection of His image

my soul is soothed because I know who I belong to

hold onto this fact where you are there is your Redeemer there is never a place you can go where your faith can not keep you.

pam1 Much love from Your Redeemer who what? Lives

may u be God’s reflection #equalpayday #urgodslovestory

jesus He already did it.

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I Recall

I recall so clearly my years when I was in school and the memories of coming home to the warmth of my mother’s love. She would be at home cooking and watching her soap opera. I just remember loving to come and see my mother after a long day at school away from her. My mom was always there for me never could I recall a time I could not rely on her. My mother taught me responsibility, independence and love so I hope to instill in my child the same values my mother gave me. Because of this wonderful memory I realize what I need to do in order for my child to have the same wonderful memories. Love comes from memories, caring, and knowing you have someone you can depend on. I hope I sure can do as well a job as my mother has done for me. Because of the values I have I can be a good mother for my daughter. Hard maybe but loving because it shape individuals it shapes the way you live, things you do to survive, way to handle pressure, and becoming a great extraordinary person. That is why good memories are worth remembering and cherishing for a lifetime.

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the generation my mother created…gosh I miss her.

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ALPHABET OF LOVE 12

inspired by my love for my daughter

ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL

BEARY HUGGABLE

CENTER OF MY HEART

DEFINITELY FULL OF SURPRISES

EXTREMELY IRRESISTIBLE

FOUNDATION OF MOMMY’S STRENGTH

GLEAMING EYES THAT ARE BRIGHTER THAN A FULL MOON

HEAVENLY BEAUTY

INNOCENCE UNSPOKEN

JOY TO BE AROUND

KNACK FOR CAPTURING THE HEART

LOVES UNCONDITIONALLY

MOMMY’S REAL LIVE DOLLY DOLL

NONSTOP FUN

ONLY JUST THE BEGINNING

PRETTY LITTLE ANGEL

QUIETLY WATCHES THE WORLD AROUND HER

RAY OF SHINE LIGHT

SEARCHING FOR FUN

TOUCH THAT WARMS THE SOUL

UNCOVERING NEW WONDERS

VALUABLE PART OF LIFE

WATCHING AND LEARNING THE WAYS OF LIFE

XTRA LOVE

YOU’LL DEFINITELY LOVE ME!

ZOOMS LIKE A BOTTLE OF SHAKEN SODA!!

FROM A TO Z LOVE FOLLOWS ME.

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may u be God’s reflection #urgodslovestroy

pictures of love that I hope will give you some peace….

 

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Mardi Gras for those who don’t know

He Speaks

How I met my husband-Incomplete the Poet

A fisherman spends a life time trying to catch ‘The Big One’. They may get nibbles even a bite or two. Some may even catch a few only to throw them back. A fisherman, a true fishermen couldn’t call himself such if he wasn’t patient. Knowing when to wait… How to wait… An even what to do while he’s waiting.

A fisherman should always be concerned about his gear. The equipment he’s using, the instruments that enables his craft. Some fishermen use a lot of expensive gear, others don’t. There are even some fishermen who don’t use any gear at all, they can just jump in the water and snatch them up a fish.

I however, fish by faith. I know it sounds like a cliché. Like, how is that even possible? If you were following my metaphor thus far then you know I wasn’t talking about catching an actual fish but rather a mate. By the way, I caught her. She doesn’t even know she’s caught. But she’s on my line; soon she’ll be in my net, in my boat and in my arms.

So to all the other fishie’s out there I hope your fishermen come alone and snatch you up as well. To those fish that I conversed with, even gone on dates with, I want to thank you for making me a better fisherman. And for those fish that were on my line, I apologize but I have to cut it. I would like to thank POF for supplying this pond, this lake, this ocean of opportunity. If it wasn’t for your contribution this fishermen, would have never caught his ‘Big One’. I am forever indebted to you.

As I said before, she doesn’t even know she’s caught, but she’s on my line, and for that, I’m grateful! ‘P.C.’ contrary to popular belief I’m not a good fishermen, but I am a great gentlemen. I can’t wait to experience this journey together. Till then, this fisherman has cast his line for the very last time.

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may u be God’s reflection #urgodslovestory

Black History Month which is the Love Month

 

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Life Ends, And?

P.M. Mathis

What would I have said to my mom if I had, had the chance? Would it have been mom I don’t want you to die, that would have been selfish knowing how sick and how painful her illness was. I love you but of course she already knew that.  Why you?  And what would I have expected her to answer, I don’t know baby.  God is punishing you and why?  She would have said no God is not the cause of her suffering he is her savior and her source of strength and survival.  I wish I could do something to ease the suffering but of course she knew that.  So what then would be the proper course of action? Even if I could have come up with an answer it would have fallen on deaf ears because she was unable to recognize her children because the medication for pain was her comfort.  Therefore the illness, consumed her.  There was no liveliness in her eyes.  Her every breath seemed to hurt.  Her ease came when she stopped breathing.  Unbeknownst to my mother life left and death became her savior.  No alarm in her passing, no struggle to keep her here.  Her readiness was unspoken and yet recognizable to the ones she left behind.  She left this world the way she came into it surrounded by love.  Wake up mom. Since it was not just a bad dream, my life was altered that day.  And like all those things that you just think you cannot live over, I am here living, loving, and missing my mother every day.

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words for the heart:

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MY MOTHER’S VOICE

My mind tries hard to remember the sound of my mother’s voice flowing like music. She softly says I am alright now, so do not cry for me anymore.

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it is not just a human thing:

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MARRIAGE AGAIN

He was my prince charming, but I was not his one queen. So what do I do with that?

I was his baby maybe? His option not his priority.

I thought his name would be ownership, but he did not offer that just a name change.

His love expected me to give up my voice for his existence.

He expects to be heard but won’t listen.

“You cannot use things I say against me,” he claims.

But it is okay for me to use your past actions to hold you accountable.

Therefore keeping me justified in my non actions while the breakdown of marriage again occurs.

Since you want to do marriage like a business, I presume you want a silent partner, right?

Betrayal has come because I did not understand the signals of my heart.

I thought his love was a safe place for my heart to land, but my realization has become abandonment.

I over thought my marriage and thought it away again too much emphasis not enough love.

When fear is your reality, that becomes your reality and you get the fear you think you live.

No one can please or make happiness appear when misery is inside and perception is not the reality…no respect no love is what she hears.

I need to create my own presence not walk in my husband’s shadow.

One sided this marriage seems, and the side that gets his way wants to end it.

 How does that play out?

I will get over you and recognize the lesson once you’re gone.

Why did I choose to marry again?

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have some cake:

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Tribute To My Mother

 CHILD

Who brings joy to my live? My Child.

Shows me the way home? My Child.

Loves me no matter what I do? My Child.

Has a Smile that brightens my day? My Child.

Knows no hate? My Child.

So deserving of everything? My Child.

Gives the best hugs and kisses? My Child.

There is nothing greater than the wonder and surprise of a child.

 

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the image that really captures the pic of a mother’s love:

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