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Today was a storming day and as such these are the days I miss my mother the most. For me my security vanished when she took her last breath. I recall crawling in bed with her when it would storm (lighting and thundering) feeling protected and at ease with the thought mommy will protect me. Now I feel so alone. I have no one to depend on as far as making me feel safe. I don’t want to pass this fear to Tequila. I know she can sense my uneasiness with bad weather. I feel at my age I should be more secure in my own strengths, but as it goes I just feel so small and unsure about what to do. I want this feeling to go away so I can get some normalcy back. I don’t want another person to be my security I want that security to come from within. To be able to say, Pam keep it under control and stay in charge and you will make it.
may you be God’s reflection #urgodslovestory
Christmas Kitten-Merry Christmas: